June 10, 2009
It’s been a while since I wrote about the trial that’s upon me. This has been a period of laughter and lightness and I haven’t wanted to throw damp water on the good time I’ve been having by talking about this trial in my life. Its really easy to talk about ones death when you come to realize that everybody will have to face their death sometime during their life. Next week I will start Chemo again in an attempt to “manage” my disease. My Doctor tells me that I can manage it very well and I haven’t found a reason to dispute her words. I had asked for a delay in my treatment so that I may attend my grand children’s graduations.
The delay has given me an opportunity to come to grips with the situation and make some decisions about my attitude concerning treatment and the disease itself. I’ve decided that it really doesn’t matter. I feel good right now so I’ll just hang on that and enjoy my life as it comes to me. The one thing I’ve realized is that I’ve been able to accumulate good friends and close relationships among the people I know. My friends have found subtle ways to support me in this time of trial. I’ve really come to appreciate it. I want to spend as much time as I can with them before I’m unable to do that anymore.
We went to the San Diego Zoo this week and saw the new Elephant exhibit. I found it invigorating. I’ve always loved Zoos and I’m lucky enough to live close to one of the best in the world. The new elephant exhibit was especially nice when we visited it, the weather was cool and the animals were active. Observing them this day was especially nice. The summer tourist season hasn’t started yet and the schools are still in session so the Zoo was relatively empty. The Animals put on a great show for us and the walking was easy. I found a smile painted on my face and my camera was working overtime to capture all the good shots that presented themselves to me.
I left the zoo feeling very much alive and ready to face whatever was coming my way. Our world is teaming with life and I’ve been privileged to be part of the earth fauna. Whatever time I have left I will celebrate the life that is earth and the privileges we humans have to be part of this life on Earth.
