May 26, 2009

It’s been a while since I’ve written in this little blog because I had to stop thinking about my end for at least a little bit. Actually I never think about the end of my life. Instead I think about how I’m living life. I really find that I don’t have to change much to go to the end. I’ve tried all my life to make my life count. I find that by living as if everyday was the most day of my life it makes me a much better person. At one time I was loud needlessly. I hurt people all the time though word and deed. If they took offence I would say well that’s their problem not mine.

One day I realized that people were seeing me much differently than I was seeing myself. Worse people really didn’t like me and worse of all it was my fault. I became determined to change things because I really saw myself as a good guy. My life was spinning out of control because I was trying to control uncontrollable things. I started Working hard to make others see the part of me that I was proud of. It took some time but through self-honesty and hard work I turned things around.

My brother gave me today’s question to answer, “What is My Legacy?” I’ve spent some time thinking about this and have come tot he conclusion that my legacy is to be an example self-honesty. I know that this really isn’t what my brother meant by legacy. To me it’s the true legacy that one can leave behind. We treat each other in a certain manner and that sends out waves that affect others. These waves yoyo through out all of humanity and that is ones real legacy.

With this in mind it is easy to feel at ease with ones mortality. When my grandchildren come over they have to see one who feel at peace with them. I know it will make any difficult time in their life easier to draw on the strength they see in my last days. This I hope will be my true legacy.